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RED SIDE
03:29
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I’m embracing the red side of my mind
Gonna come crashing down
like a suicidal pilot, with no fear of dying
I’m sick of always lying, trying, complying.
I’m done with acts of kindness!
Here this: I’ve been the but of slap-stick
Fuck this! You better wish
You were born somewhere else
[x2] Cuz the red sides closing in
and it won’t back down
Get ready to die
Cuz I don’t care if it’s a crime
To destroy what’s left of your self worth
Cuz your'e the one who gave birth
To the red side of my mind
I’m embracing the dark side of my life
All the turmoil, expelled from my hell
Listen for the sound of bell
Ding dong
This is a song about regret
Expect, a reaction from a reject
Fun fact
I don’t give a fuck.
And I can feel my bones
Wanting to explode
And my soul
Leaking through my toes
Oh oh
This isn’t what I hoped
Oh on
I’ve lost all control
I have to get distracted
I’m unable to handle with madness
This abyss won’t submit to my fists
No matter how hard I try these
Waves of emotions
Are taking there hold
And they're draining my hope
Into this magnificent moat
That is blocking me off
From the people who matter
They won’t let me shatter
Not matter how battered
This battle makes me seems
so I’m taking a-hold
Of what’s left of my soul
And I’ll ready the weapons
Because no matter what you threaten
My favorite color's not red
So please just get out of my head
I’m embracing the red side of my mind
But this time, Not by choice
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2. |
Destined To Die Young
02:05
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My Mid-life crisis came 20 years early
Or am I really halfway dead?
My stomach is burning
Is this really how my destiny will be read?
Destined to die young
There’s no time for fun
I couldn’t hear, the last thing said
It is time for bed
Time to forget
Should have left my destiny unread
Who am I?
Was I meant to die young?
Without out my song
It’s either, all or nothing
Balance is suffering
I need balance
The choice are never clear
The answers to why we’re here
To easy freezing in fear
Complacency is a trap
In time it will leave a gap
I learnt how, to fight!
Not sure if I’m right
But I wage this battle fey
This time I refuse to run!
Who am I?
I was meant to die, but not today
I have found my song
It’s either, all or nothing
Balance will come
I need balance
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3. |
100 Million Bricks
02:08
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I can feel my death approaching
but not in the way you think
it's not the lack of breathing
or my heart not beating
it's apathy
a constant sinking feeling
that playing the piano doesn't make me happy
I'm a bi-weekly paycheck
A low buzzing noise
I'm weak
Victimized by my mattress
a terrible cause of Stockholm syndrome
I want to leave
But it's gravity is to strong
and no matter which song i choose
I find myself unable to move
a single screaming muscle
because
I have 100 million brick
inside my skull
and they're not leaving
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4. |
Oh Gosh, That's Dark
05:10
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I got to find a way to be okay
I wake up in the morning with nothing to say
It’s almost like my brain is locked in a cage
So I try write the words to explain this pain
But I’ll never find a way to form these thoughts
It’s almost like my joy and an after thought
These words were bought with the greatest of thoughts
So I might live have something to give
My life, up for the cause
What’s that? You’re gonna have to ask
It’s the ability so I don’t have to wear this mask
End scene, let’s leave, I’m done with this act
I’m done
I never get a chance to feel unwound
Cuz’ everything around me is shrouded in clouds
Uncertain, vague, not very clear
Is it any wonder why I live my life in fear?
No job, no luck, my roommate’s a cuck
Some days I wish I could just be struck by a truck
Oh gosh that’s dark let me try to restart
Let me try to restart…
I tend to feel anxious most of the time
Cuz’ my self-worth is in a hole
So deep I dig, don’t bother to climb
Maybe it’s because I can’t do anything right
I’m bright they say almost everyday
“You graduated from college with a high GPA”
I’m a terrible guy, who isn’t living his life
So stuck up my head that I can’t even do right
By the people I love, by the people who care
The only thing that I can offer is a blank fucking stare
I need to do more, I need to be clear
I need to be better than the guy in the mirror
I try to escape these bad habits
But my legs are so tired
I try to run but it’s not enough
So I guess I have to face it
I try to run, I try to run, I try to run!
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5. |
Lies
03:58
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Our eyes, sometimes like to tell lies
Without a reason why
It’s really messed up
And we should be really
Fed up
How do we go on?
Not knowing what is real
I’m terrified
How are you not mortified
By the fact that what you see
Might not actually be
So I’m just going to close my eyes
Cuz’ I can’t filter out
All of these lies
Walking down the street
I keep to myself
Cuz’ I don’t want to be fooled
By my eyes
But time and time, and time again
They find a way, to trick my brain
Now you all think I’m insane
But I’m just a product of my domain
I’m terrified
How are you not mortified
By the fact that what you see
Might not actually be
So I’m just going to close my eyes
Cuz’ I can’t filter out
All of these lies
I think it’s time
To say goodbye
Cuz’ I’d rather walk around blind
Than fall for these lie, anymore
I think it’s time
To say goodbye, to these eyes
Cuz’ I’d rather walk around blind
Than fall for these lie, anymore
I think it’s time
To say goodbye
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6. |
Red Siege
04:00
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Red, You're at it again
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7. |
Rainy Days
03:09
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The clouds are extra, gray today
And the rain is falling onto my face
Water diffuses into my veins
Weighing down my brain
Making things seem as gray
All I see are, shades of gray
Where did all, the colors go?
Did the rain wash them away
To place that I cannot glance
I guess that rain is here to stay
I guess the rain is here
To stay
The torrential downpour
Is here to scorn
Every bone in my body
So no time to run shotty
The rain is so heavy
I don’t think I’ll be ready
To handle is burn
Oh gosh is hurts!
And the clouds are ominous
And my soul is really drenched
Has gravity, intensified?
I’m about to die
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8. |
Put On That Smile
05:27
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Wake up
No one cares what you have to say
Cuz’ you’re gonna be late for work
No one cares what you have to say
Cuz’ you’re gonna be late for work
You’re gonna be late for work
Put on that smile
Act like you’re not vile
Put on that smile
You’re gonna be here a while
Put on that smile
Act like I’m not vile
Put on that smile
I’m gonna be here a while
Put on that smile
Act like we’re not vile
Put on that smile
We’re gonna be here a while
“This is, how you’re gonna live your life
No point, in making a choice
Don’t fight, you know I’m right.”
Guess I’m, just meant to be sad
The Numbness in your stomach
Is a product of the sudden realization that
There’s nothing for, working towards
I’m sinking through the floor
And things are feeling kinda forced on me
I don’t think I’ll hold on
I just got to move on
But there’s, nowhere else, to go.
“This is, how you’re gonna live your life
No point, in making a choice
Don’t fight, you know I’m right.”
Guess I’m, just meant to cry
Please Save me, I’m burning
So slowly
Please save me! Please save me!
Please, save me…
“This is, how you’re gonna live your life
No point, in making a choice
Don’t fight, you know I’m right.”
Guess I’m, just meant to die
Guess I’m just meant to die.
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9. |
Meantime
05:01
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I have, everything I want
I have, everything I need
Nothing, is going wrong
I have, many awesome friends
I have, a job I don’t hate
Nothing, is going wrong
So why do I feel
Still so anxious?
Why do I feel so
hopeless?
My Eyes, are lying again
I’m so sick of blindfolds
I need, a new pair of eyes
In the Meantime
How do i find
A way, to, appreciate, my life?
Some days, I hate my life
Some days, I want to die
But nothing, is going wrong.
Some days, I’m stressed
Some days, I cry
But Nothing's going wrong
So why do I feel
Still so anxious?
Why do I feel so
hopeless?
My Eyes, are lying again
I’m so sick of blindfolds
I need, a new pair of eyes
In the Meantime
How do I find
A way, to, appreciate, my life?
I don’t want to feel this way anymore
I feel so fucking selfish always sinking through the floor
There was a time when these feelings were valid and real
But that was long ago yet this depression won’t heal
I pushed myself into a space where I can excel
Helping to grow a scene that I now know very well
New London is the place where I myself got some help
The least I can do is help it grow, along with myself
So why do I feel
Still so anxious?
Why do I feel so
hopeless?
My Eyes, are lying again
I’m so sick of blindfolds
I need, a new pair of eyes
In the Meantime
How do i find
A way, to, appreciate, my life?
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10. |
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God, are you there?
I have something to say
That I’m scare
Of what you’ve asked me to bare
I don’t think it’s quite fair
That you ask me to stare
At the face of death, everyday
God, are you there?
I have something to say
These one-sided conversations
Are making me aggravated
Will you just answer me?
I’ve seen what you can do
But this time I have to be true
That it’s not enough for me anymore
God, are you there?
I have something to say
These lines won’t fade from under my eyes
And I’m seeing nothing up in the sky
These lines are getting deeper, everyday
What can I say so you’ll make them do away
God, are you there?
My reflections scaring me
God, are you listening?
Is this what I’m supposed to see?
These one-sided conversations
Are making me aggravated
Will you just answer me?
I’ve seen what you can do
But this time I have to be true
That it’s not enough for me anymore
These thoughts allude to a crisis of faith
When I thought I can pray all these problems away
And I begged for an answer in the vacuum of space
But no one can hear your screams in this place
So I'm left with a choice on how to proceed
Do I continue to scream in the hope that the void
Will answers these questions
Put an end to this mess and
Validate my prayers with a response. No.
I’ve come to conclude that the way to survive
Is I have to keep my eyes to the ground
I have to stand proud. I have to be loud,
Because regardless of faith, you need to leave this space.
You need to move forward, try things in a new order,
And not be afraid to pray to your brother,
pray to your friends,pray to the people who are actually here
cuz they're the ones who care
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11. |
Transient Moon
04:57
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Transient moon,
Why do you leave me?
I need you, to see
Transient moon
I know you’re mortal
Transient moon
You can’t die on me
You are the cease and desist to my brain
The white flag to all this inner pain
An end to this, ridiculous game
That I never wanted to play
So could you…
Please, Please Stay.
Transient moon,
Why do you leave me?
You’re such a
Beauty to see
Transient moon
You know my faults
Transient moon
I can’t lie to you
You are the cease and desist to my brain
The white flag to all this inner pain
An end to this, ridiculous game
That I never wanted to play
So could you…
Please, Please Stay.
Transient Moon
Transient Moon
You shine brighter than the eternal sun
You light the way, where ever you stay
So could you please just stay
Please, Please Stay.
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12. |
This Is A Turning Point
01:37
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This is a turning point
I feel it in my soul
It’s something, I thought you stole
But I feel it, it’s here again
Cuz’ I know where to go
And I remember how to hope
I have a dream
And no matter how bad
I want to end
I will push forward
I have a dream
And no matter how bad
I want to end
I will push, forward
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13. |
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Wall were meant to fall
Put up to, test you gull
Hold true,
You do you
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14. |
Red Walls
04:48
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Punching the wall can only get you so far
That doesn’t mean, you shouldn’t try hard
Each strike wearing, concert down
Don’t slow down, your time is now
If you look close, you can the cracks forming
Walls were meant to fall
Put up to, test your gull
Hold true, you do you
And walls were meant to separate
And walls were made to make you hate yourself
The Wall is coming down
Every wall, must someday fall
If progress is to ever be made
Stagnations blockade
Destroyed with a cannon ball!
Walls were meant to fall
Put up to, test your gull
Hold true, you do you
And walls were meant to separate
And walls were made to make you hate yourself
Don’t listen to the cracks in the wall
You know they’ve told you lie on lies
About a crime on how you life
Every day and night out there
In the fight, despite your fright
You clenched your fists
And you hit the wall, you hit the wall
Cracks grow desperate, they can’t win
Don’t be grim, it’s your time
To stand up, don’t let up
If you strike just right
The wall will fall!
Walls were meant to fall
Put up to, test your gull
Hold true, you do you
And walls were meant to separate
And walls were made to make you hate yourself
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Fractured Ignorance New London, Connecticut
A very uncool punk rock / hip-hop ukulele player. Also very angsty
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